In Loving Memory of
Sandi Loraine Cobb
Sunrise July 29, 1982 + Sunset May 3, 2003
Always Remember Her Life, She Did Live
These four beautiful gifts for Angel Sandi are from my friend Marie.
You can visit her website for her son Rob here ~ Rob Northrop's Site.
These three beautiful Christmas gifts for Sandi are from my dear friend, Linda.
The Silence is Deafening
I wonder if there will ever be a time to where I won’t feel sad and blue?
My heart still breaks and I ache, all the while longing for you.
All around I see many things, some old, nothing new
‘Cause when you went away that day in May
all of me went with you too.
I tried so hard to keep things real quiet listening
for your voice waiting for phone calls
That were never to come.
I never had a choice could it be your really gone
Never to come back? Is this a dream or is it merely a fact?
Oh how I cried, oh how I screamed; "Dear God please let it be
a very bad dream!"
"Wake me up" I heard myself saying
cried out to Jesus, was all I was saying.
While I was praying, I drove around screaming out in my mind;
“Please Sandi don’t be dead, don’t leave moma I need you.”
But no matter how much I pleaded,
how much I begged,
this answer played on inside my head:
"You must not fret my dearest child, cause you’ll be with her
in a while, but for now you must go on for I have
so many things for you to do before you join
us in Heaven anew."
I knew the silence would be deafening
But remember this:
I AM RIGHT THERE WITH YOU!
"Sandi is here safe with me and one day
We will all be together again in Glorious Eternity."
Copyright by Cheryl Young
January 8, 2007
The Thoughts of a Mother
For Sandi Loraine Cobb
My Angel in Heaven
July 29, 1982 + May 3, 2003
Title suggested by Elizabeth, Ray's mom
FOR MY PRECIOUS DAUGHTER, SANDI LORAINE COBB
From the day in late October of 1981, when I was skating at Broadway Skating Rink with friends and had fallen down, landing on my tummy, hurting my right knee,
I knew that you were inside my body. Don't ask me how,
I just knew before a doctor confirmed it in late January of 1982. From that day forward, the excitement of being with child again, brought new joy for us and made our little family of 3, turn to 4!
I just knew you were a boy while inside me, as you were a rowdy little baby, kicking and squirming inside me, anxious to get out as if you had so much to do, and so little time to do it in. I have told this story to you many times as you were growing up, do you remember? You finally made your arrival on a hot July morning very early, at 5:27 a.m. and what a PRECIOUS SURPRISE I got, thinking you were a boy, but secretly wanting another girl, so that Chasity would have a little sister instead of a bunch of little brothers like I had, someone she could be close with and share all of the secrets that sisters share. You were the most beautiful baby I had ever seen, next to Chasity. You were so alert and when they laid you on my tummy, you grabbed my finger with your tiny little hand and it was then, at that moment, I knew you were something very special, not just because God had chosen me to be your mommy, but there was something just so special, I can't explain it still to this day.
You had to stay in the hospital a whole week because you had yellow jaundice. When I had to go home 5 days later without you, well, it almost killed me! But you had to stay under the lights with patches on your little eyes so that your little liver could function outside my body, and to see you like that, well only a mother understands the pain of feeling so helpless
and I knew I had to trust in God to take care of you and He did!
How hot it was when they called me the morning of August 5th, to come pick you up and take you home. Chasity and I couldn't wait!
I had gotten a beautiful little green dress to bring you home in, but chose the little orange jumper instead so you wouldn't be so hot, as we had no air conditioner in our car. It was a joyous occassion to finally get to hold you, love you and care for you when we got home. We spent lots of sleepless nights, because you hated pacifiers. I can still see me trying to put one in your mouth
until I could get the bottle ready for you and you spitting it out, clear across the room.
I am smiling at this picture in my mind to this day.
Watching you grow up from my sweet little baby girl with brown hair and blue eyes, then to see it all fall out and come back in like a little cotton top, so white blonde, still with blue eyes always a happy baby, to the sweetest, loving, most caring little child, always sharing with everyone whatever you had, trying to follow your older sister to the store at age 2 1/2 years old, scaring us half to death at that time, being there for you when you were hurt, kissing the boo boo's away, coming to you when you had nightmares, scaring the boogie man away and telling you I was there, everything would be alright.
Seeing your sweet spirit always helping others as you got older,
hating it whenever others made fun of others, plus your sister, trying to take up for her even then.........
You were so funny! God really gave you a great sense of humor, my darling Sandi Rain. When I was sad or having a bad day, seeing your bright little smile
somehow made everything alright for that day. You and I were so close, you liked everything I liked
and when you were two years old, you could sing our song back to me; "You And Me Against The World," as I sang this to you while I was carrying you inside my body.
Coming to all of your choir concerts as you went to Tisinger Elementary School and then being there when you made the Mesquite All Girls Choir because you truly had a voice like an angel and you could sing like nobody's business! Seeing you get saved at the tender age of 9 years old, seeing the excitement of coming to know our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, watching you perform
on the Tiger's Drill Team at every game they played in 1991 and then making Cheerleader in 1993, these memories I will cherish forever!
Sandi at age 11 when she was on the D-Tigers Drill Team (Little League) here in our hometown.
Our beautiful Sandi at age 14.
To see you become a beautiful young teenager with all the problems teens had to face at that time, us talking, sharing them together, sometimes not, but always momma loving you for being so loving, sweet and honest of your feelings. Oh you had a temper, yes you did, but even through the angriest of times, we never stopped loving one another. Then in 9th grade at Mesquite High School, coming to see you as Head Captian of the Maroon Brigade, watching you cheer the football team on, these memories too will I cherish in my heart forever. Facing all the heartaches that went along with being an older teenager, being there with you when you re-affirmed your faith in God and being baptised at 14, and how you handled things and helped others, was simply amazing!
Being there for you when you had your first love break your heart, I am glad I was there for you to wipe away the tears.
Here is Sandi and BJ, her boyfriend who broke her heart that I wrote about.
When I fell down the stairs at work in 1999, injuring my leg and finding out you were going to have a child of you own, being in shock at first, but then the shock wore off and I was so excited to finally get to become a grandmother and have a little extension of you, Chasity and I! How proud I was and I never, ever turned my back on you, nor held it against you, that is what real love is all about. When you had Maddisson that warm night at 11:33 p.m. in May, was another of the JOYS in my lifetime. The circle seemed complete now. I knew that you were so young and the picture of you
lovingly looking at your newborn baby daughter, well that is a priceless moment caught in time and I am so happy that I have it with me.
It was hard for me to let you go after you had Maddisson, one of the hardest things I, at that time, thought I would ever go through. You know, there was something else in my heart that I just knew and that was, that God had a plan for me when I fell down those stairs, but I sure didn't know that this would be His plan, to have to take you back home so soon! You had gone back to school to get your High School Diploma and then had plans to go to college last fall in 2003, to start majoring in classes to become a psycologist and having your whole life ahead of you, but God had a different plan, one that I still to this day, do not understand, but honey, I am trusting in His promises and He alone, has finally brought me to a place of peace and comfort about your death, but momma, Chasity, Maddisson, Vince and the rest of us are missing your presence in our lives so very, very much. Not being able to hear you laughter, seeing your sweet face, baby blue eyes, seeing you in person, feeling your arms around me,
that is what is the hardest of all to accept.
That warm Spring night on May 2nd, when we got the news about your accident, I was praying all the way there on our way to the hospital, for God to let you wait for me to get there to be with you so that you would know I was there, us getting to the hospital and God answering my prayers, waiting on me to get to you before He truly took you home with him, letting you hear us, Chasity, Arron and I in that cold Emergency Room, and Chasity and I spoke to you to let you know that we were both there and your were not alone, God letting you hear me sing our song to you and He gave me a miracle by letting you hear me singing it, because as I finished the song, a tear welled up in your left eye and 2 tears rolled down your right cheek, then I felt a warmth go right through my body, as you went quitely away, HOME WITH OUR LORD. They had to do some sort of brain function test that lasted for 12 hours, to see if any brain activity would start back up and at one point and time, they opened your eyes, and to have to be there and see what used to be such beautiful, sparkling blue eyes full of life, with only a blank stare, it all came rushing back to me, of that time I had to let you go when Maddisson was born,
and it wasn't even close to the horrific pain of the harsh reality knowing that you were truly gone,
that was THE HARDEST THING MOMMA EVER HAD TO DO IN HER WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE!
But God gave me another miracle from 2:45 a.m. until 3:03 a.m., as I came back from just outside your room in the Severe Intensive Care Unit, as I sat down after kissing your little monkey toes and pretty little feet, and I slipped my left had under your left hand, you were able to lift your hand and mine, straight up off the bed, holding on for dear life, cutting of the circulation in my fingers and I asked the nurse if this was the response that we were looking for, she said to me; "No honey, talk to her, she is still here." So, I told you all of the things we had talked about in our lives, how much I loved you and would never stop, would always take care of Maddisson and see to it, that she went to church to get to know God, asking if He would let you stay with me, I would take care of you for the rest of my life, but if He was calling you home with him, to go ahead and go, but go only to the bright, white light, Jesus would be waiting for you there and momma and grandmother would be there to help you on over. Telling you how very much I was going to miss you, but I would be alright, then I kissed your sweet hand and it fell back on the bed, like a rock sinking in water. I know we will meet again in Heaven,
so until that day comes, I will rest in God's arms and take care of the precious legacy that you left behind in little Maddisson
and I thank God for you and He leaving me with a part of you to watch grow up all over again..........
I cannot say good-bye anymore, so I will say "Hello" instead, because when it is my turn to come your way up above, you will be there to meet me and say; "WELCOME HOME."
I cannot wait until that day comes, so you rest my BEAUTIFUL GIRL, until we meet again:
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND CHERISH THE MEMORIES OF YOU IN MY HEART.
GOD ONLY KNOWS HOW MUCH WE MISS YOU, WE LOVE YOU STILL,
AND GOD TAKES CARE OF US ALL EVERDAY............
All my love to you and Jesus forever and always,
Momma, Chasity, Maddisson and Vince
HAVE YOU EVER HEARD A PARENT CRY
HAVE YOU EVER HEARD A PARENT CRY
AT THE SIGHT OF THEIR NEW BORN BABE
SO FILLED WITH EMOTION AT WHAT THEIR
LOVE HAS MADE?
HAVE YOU EVER HEARD THEM CRY WHEN
BABE TAKES IT'S FIRST STEPS
SO TINY ON THEIR TOES THAT SIGHT WILL
TAKE AWAY YOUR BREATH?
HAVE YOU EVER HEARD THEM CRY AS
THEM TO LEAVE THEM ON THEIR VERY FIRST DAY OF
STANDING OUTSIDE THE CLASSROOM
WATCHING THEM WISHING YOU COULD TAKE THEM
TO THE TIME BEFORE THE RULES?
HAVE YOU EVER HEARD THEM CRY
AS THEY GET
TO THAT BIG GRADUATION DAY,
UP READY TO TACKLE THE WORLD,
READY TO MAKE
THEIR WAY IN THIS GREAT BIG WORLD?
I HAVE HEARD EVERY ONE OF THESE
THE TEARS HAVE BEEN MY VERY OWN
BUT THE CRY YOU WILL HEAR AND NEVER FORGET
IS THE ONE WHEN YOUR CHILD IS TAKEN FROM YOU
IN BUT A MOMENT TAKEN TO OUR FATHER'S HOME
OUR HEARTS SCREAM "WHY GOD OH WHY"
SOUND COMES FROM DEEP INSIDE ESCAPING FROM
"IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE THIS WAY" YOU
HEAR YOURSELF SAY,
YOU CRY FOR HELP
PLEASE PLEASE NOT MY BABY,
NOT THIS WAY.
OH YOU WILL BEG, OH HOW YOU WILL PLEAD
THAT KIND OF CRY WILL STAY WITH YOU
UNTIL THE DAY THAT GOD CLOSES YOUR EYES
ONE DAY THE CRIES ARE AS FAST AS THE OCEANS
WAVES CRASHING ON THE SHORES, BUT THEN ONE DAY
YOU WILL NOTICE THAT THEY'VE GOTTEN
SLOWER AND SLOWER.
THEN ONE DAY YOU WILL FEEL THE SUNSHINE
ON YOUR SKIN,
THE WIND REALLY BLOWING IN
BUT WAY DOWN DEEP INSIDE
THIS PARENTS CRY WILL COME AGAIN
OF THIS, YOU CAN BE SURE.
HAVE YOU EVER HEARD A PARENT CRY?
copyright by Cheryl Young
March 22, 2008
I STILL LOVE, MISS YOU AND THAT PAIN NEVER ENDS.
MOMA LOVES YOU MUFFIN
Sandi's Alive in our hearts Forever Light. On one side of the light there's a dragonfly and the other side is a frog. Sandi loved frogs and the dragonfly landed on my lips in 2006 at my friend's house.
I was out with my friend looking at her new house and when we came outside, this red wasp, I thought, was flying around me and I'll be dipped if it didn't come land right on my lips!
Rayna said; "It's not a wasp, it's a dragonfly! "
She asked me what Sandi's favorite color was and I said green, she said well she changed to red because red means love...
This story below is on Sandi's Remembered By Us site on the web...
Sandi Loraine "Muffin" Cobb was born very early that hot July morning. She was always an early bird. To say she was beautiful is an understatement, because it was the beauty on the inside
that made her beauty shine through on the outside. Sandi was the most loving little child. She was my "muffin."
Mama's pretty Muffin at age 4.
Sandi always helped others out giving them the shirt off her back or any money she had. She was very protective too, of her older sister. At the age of 6 months old, she raised her little fist at our friends at the time, when they goosed her sister as she passed by, walking to get something to drink. I can still see her in my mind doing this and it makes me smile. My Muffin, always had a smile on her face
and if she didn't, well, you knew some one was going to get it for sure!
Sandi and her cousin, who were besties until she left this world.
Her blue eyes danced when she laughed or smiled, as you can see here in her pictures. I love those little dimples when she smiled. She was always helping others no matter what the problem was.
Everyone came to Sandi for advice, even me on occasion. She was very wise, to be so young. We had long talks into the night sometimes till early morning. She never was afraid to be seen with me
as she got into Jr. High or High School like most young teens are. Every morning when I dropped her off, she would kiss me and give me a hug.
Sandi was on the J.V Drill team and the Head Captain of the Maroon Brigade in High School. She was the captain of the little league cheerleaders and on B Drill also. Sandi was in Choir all of school life.
She could sing Martina McBride's song; "Broken Wing" with all the gusto that Martina puts into it. I wish I had recorded it...
Sandi loved to find lizards and bring them to me because she knew that I didn't like them! She loved the little frogs as well as she loved lizards. She had a very good sense of humor, my Sandi Rain did.
She was always creeping up behind me to frighten me. She got he biggest kick out of that. She was my best friend, as well as my daughter. We shared a love like no other.
I miss her so very much. I miss our talks, sharing a cup of coffee in the mornings,
her hugs and most of all, her voice saying; "Moma, I love you. Don't cry, it will be alright." She may be gone to others, but never to myself, her sister
or her beautiful baby girl, whom Sandi and Jesus left here, so that my arms wouldn't be so empty.
Sandi loved everything I did. Elvis, rock and roll, country, old movies and just hanging out with her moma. I long for her, miss her still and our love will be with me forever
until I see her again with Jesus in Heaven.
Rest well my sweet muffin. I love you now and then some.
Lovin You Always and Forever, Moma, Maddisson, Chasity, Vince and the rest of our family.
It isn't the same without you here baby, never will be again...
Sandi, our dear mom Vera and myself.
I said the path is too steep. JESUS SAID I WILL NOT LET YOUR FEET SLIP.
I said the road is dark. JESUS SAID I AM YOUR LIGHT.
I said I don't know the direction. JESUS SAID I AM THE WAY.
I said I am weak and tired. JESUS SAID I WILL CARRY YOU.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER WHEN JANUARY SNOWFLAKES FALL,
KIND OF SEEMS SORT OF FROZEN IN TIME, LIKE A CLOCK INSIDE A WALL.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER IN FEBRUARY AS IT’S A MONTH TO SHOW LOVE,
BUT TO A MOTHER WHO HAS LOST A CHILD, I WONDER WHAT HAPPENED TO
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER WHEN MARCH WINDS START TO BLOW,
IT REMINDS HER OF THAT AWFUL DAY, SHE GOT THAT TERRIBLE CALL,
IT MADE HER FEEL JUST
LIKE A BRICK BEING THROWN AGAINST A WALL.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER AS APRIL RAINS COME DOWN,
IT MAKES ME THINK OF HOW THE GOOD LORD FELT,
WHEN JESUS WORE THAT THORNY CROWN.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER IN MAY AS FLOWERS BLOOM,
FOR ALL A GRIEVING MOTHER HAS LEFT, IS A BED WITHIN AN EMPTY ROOM.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER IN JUNE AS SUMMER STARTS,
IT BRINGS BACK MEMORIES THAT SHE HOLDS SO CLOSE TO HER HEART,
OF TIMES THEY SPENT TOGETHER GOING TO THE PARK.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER AS THE HOT JULY SUN BEATS DOWN,
SHE KNOWS HER CHILD'S IN HEAVEN BY NOW,
BUT THIS LIFE SHE NOW HAS, SURE IS GETTING HER DOWN.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER AS AUGUST COMES TO TOWN,
REMEMBERING THE TIME HER OWN HEART,
NEARLY TOOK HER DOWN.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER AS SEPTEMBER BRINGS ON FALL,
AND ALL THE TIMES SHE SPENT AT GAMES, WATCHING HER CHILD PLAY BALL.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER AS OCTOBER BRINGS ON INDIAN SUMMER,
AS SHE REMEMBERS THE TIMES HER CHILD WAS WITH HIS OR HER MOTHER.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER IN NOVEMBER AS WE ALL SHARE IN THANKSGIVING,
I WONDER HOW BY THIS TIME,
THIS POOR MOTHER IS EVEN LIVING.
GOD BLESS THE GRIEVING MOTHER IN DECEMBER AT CHRISTMAS TIME,
AS HER HEART IS ALREADY BROKEN,
FROM NOT HEARING A SINGLE WORD,
THAT THE LOST CHILD HAS NOT SPOKEN.
I WONDER AS THE DAYS TURN INTO MONTHS,
AND THEN TURN INTO YEARS, IF THAT GRIEVING MOTHER,
EVER LEARNS TO STOP SHEDDING THOSE SORROWFUL TEARS?
SO STOP AND THINK ABOUT IT, THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE ONE CRY
OR HEAR HER SAY’ “ I’VE LOST IT ALL,”
PLEASE TAKE HER HAND, JUST TRY TO UNDERSTAND,
SHE JUST MISSES HER CHILD, THAT’S ALL.
COPYRIGHT SEPTEMBER 14, 2005
BY CHERYL YOUNG
This is a loving gift from my dear friend, Susie, mom to Angel Jason.
A friend can hear a tear drop.
This webpage is created In Loving Memory of Sandi Loraine Cobbon June 21, 2012
Last updated: July 13, 2016
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