In Loving Memory of
Malorie Anne Adkins
November 16, 1990 - October 2, 2004

Footsteps In The Sand

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:
one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it:
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed you the most you would leave me."
The Lord replied:
"My son, My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you,
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."
~ Author unknown

If God had said to Bryan and I, "I am going to give you a daughter, but I am only going to let you have her for 13 years," would we still have taken her? This is something Bryan and I had read shortly after Mal went to Heaven. Our answer would have been, yes. Even with all of the pain and despair our family has gone thru, we still wouldn't haven given up those 13 years we spent with Malorie. I think the only way we as a family are getting thru this is thru our faith and having hope. A scripture I rely on is Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

If you knew anything at all about Mal, it was that she was a Christian. She was the one in our family who rarely missed church, the one who drove us crazy at the supper table quizzing us about what she learned in Sunday School that morning. One of her dear friends, Sydney, wrote in Mal's journal, that she was thankful for the
3:00 in the morning chats about what Heaven was like.

Through God's Grace, knowing that we will one day see Mal again, we are learning how to get from one day to the next. When we see Malorie again, we don't want to say to her, "We haven't done much since you left." I think that would make her sad. Each day God is showing us what a gift Malorie was. Take her gift and be a friend to someone, help someone, make someone laugh, be yourself, and as Mal did with her gift to play basketball, find something you love to do, and give 100% at being the best you can be.

Our 13 year old daughter, Malorie was killed in a car accident on Oct. 2, 2004. It's hard to believe that it has been 12 years since I heard Mal's laugh, smelled her hair, sat next to her at the kitchen table, told her to turn down her stereo, what I wouldn't do to do those things one more time. I often wonder why God took Mal so soon, I know he takes only the best. I know God has a purpose for our family and this journey we have just begun. Since Malorie
went to Heaven, I have truly learned the meaning of God's Grace.

God's Grace; You always hear people say, "Through the Grace of God......" I guess I never really thought about what that means. Until after October 2nd, then I really started to search to figure out what God's Grace really is. I used to think that Grace meant that everything would go okay for me. I have learned that Grace is not that. Grace is being given God's care, God's love, God being there for us thru everything, and Grace is sometimes given to us in unseen ways. We can't work to achieve it, and God doesn't withhold it from us if we don't earn it. Grace is "a gift". God's Grace might come to us when we least suspect it. It might be a phone call from a friend each afternoon at 1:00, it might be a sister-in-law buying new dishes when we can't seem to sit down to dinner, it might be feeling the presence of Mal in a room, or a friend telling a story about Mal that we didn't know, and it could be a new understanding of life and death. I think God's Grace is always here waiting for us, but sometimes we can get so carried away with "life", we forget about Grace. Grace never leaves us, even thru our tragedies, that same grace, as a friend once wrote to me, "is sufficient," and will get us thru. I think that the greatest grace of all is that Malorie is still as present as she always was, though invisable to the eye. Thru Grace, death really is not final. Because of God's Grace, we have hope, and for us, we can only "Imagine", what Malorie is experiencing in Heaven. I believe that God's Grace will continue to not only bring us comfort, but will help us remember Malorie's spirit is always and forever with us, if we can only imagine.

Ta Daaaa, Malorie would always say as she would do one of her favorite poses.

Our Angel, Malorie Anne Adkins, born on November 16, 1990
and born into Heaven on October 2, 2004.

Ashleigh's friend made a CD for her in Memory of Malorie. One of the songs, Dancing With the Angels,
reminds me so much of Mal, and I can see her Dancing With the Angels in Heaven.

Each Fall the girls in our family take a Girls Only Trip. Mom, Mal, Aunt Jenny, Sister Ashleigh,
and Aunt Brenda visit the Mall of America in Minnesota.

Another pose, Mal before going to school in the 4th grade.

The Broken Chain

We did not know that morning that God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly, in death the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
you did not go alone,
for part of us went with you the day God called you home
You left us peaceful memories,
your love is still our guide,
and though we cannot see you, you are always by our side.
Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same,
but as GOD calls us one by one, the CHAIN will link again.
~ Author unknown

Malorie's favorite past time. Her favorite thing to do was to read a magazine and sit in the hot tub. This is her last birthday with us. For her 13th party she had a blast sitting in the hot tub with best friends, Amber, Jill, Samantha, Mal and Alyssa.

Another Mal Moment:
My favorite thing to do with Malorie would be when just Mal and I would sit late at night outside
in our hot tub together. She would tell me the latest gossip about who was going with who and who she had her eye on.

Our last Christmas with Malorie. Mal, Ashleigh and Sawyer, holding Sophie.

Our Christmas Angels

I wanted to write a section titled; Malorie's Gifts, but as I thought about it, there are so many gifts Mal has given us, and continues to give us, I couldn't possibly know where to start. I do think, though, the most important gift from Mal is that each one of us live for God everyday, no matter what our age is, because like Malorie, we never know
when God will call us home.

To see an Angel, one must look thru believing eyes.

So, thank you Mally, sweetheart, for a lifetime of memories and gifts, for telling us like it is, for teaching us to make the most of each day, to never give up, and for being the cream in the middle of our oreo cookie,
like you used to say, the middle of the cookie is what holds everything together.

One of our family trips to Branson MO.

Malorie played the trumpet in the school band. Another thing we always looked foward to
on Christmas Eve was Mal playing the trumpet and Ash played the piano.

All of the Adkins Kids live for sports. The summer of 02 Ashleigh and Malorie both got to play softball on the same team. They wouldn't admit it, but I think they really enjoyed playing together. A memory I have of that summer was when Ash was playing catcher and Mal was playing 2nd base. Ash threw the ball to get a runner out, only Mal's mind was somewhere else.
The ball hit Mal in the forehead and knocked her out cold.

God's Promise

God never promised
A life without pain,
Laughter without tears
Or sun without rain.
But He did promise
Strength for the day,
Comfort for the tears
And light for the way,
And for all who believe
In His Heaven above
He rewards their faith
In His everlasting love.

Malorie, 3 years old in the hospital for falling off of the church fire escape. We always said
an Angel caught her. She was lucky to come out of it with just a broken arm
and a couple broken ribs.

Mal and Alyssa ice skating. As usual, her mouth is wide open! Who knows what is so funny?

Mal's 1st year being a girl scout. She was so proud of the badges she has earned.

This beautiful image above is a gift to Malorie from my dear friend, Cuppy.

This special gift for Angel Malorie is from my friend Janet.

Even at age 3, Malorie loved to cheer! Notice she picked out the K.U. cheerleader outfit...

We can't begin to thank our family, friends, and our church family for your prayers and your support. We will forever remember you. And for everyone that asks how we are doing; I think as a family, we are learning to live with our "new" normal, the reality of missing Mal, suppers being quiet, no one yelling wohooo, the bathroom being a mess, music blaring, Mal's honesty in telling it like it is, missing she and Saw playing school or their music concerts, listening to her and Ash about who is the best at shooting hoops. We still hold on to God and our hope of seeing Mal soon. Although tears are often shed, we know that Malorie is in heaven, (can you imagine her turning that place upside down?) and we are seeing how God can make good things happen even out of the most heartbreaking tragedies. I guess you could say, we are holding on with days of smiles and days of tears.

"Malorie is not only in our past, more importantly, Malorie is in our future."

Mally, we love you forever, and we will see ya soon,
Dad, Mom, Ashleigh and Sawyer

These are four special gifts for Angel Malorie from my friend Marie.
You can visit her website for her Angel Rob here - Rob Northrop's Site.

Dear Natalie and ANGEL Malorie
This is a poem that my ANGEL Lee wrote, it is very special to me,
I would love to share it with you, as your ANGEL Malorie is very special to you.


Softness of the skin
Sweetness in the smell
Nectar of the fruit
Tender in the heart
Dancing in the eyes
Uplifting in the smile
Tickle of the touch
Joining in the love

Truth in the speech
Love in the laughter
Primal in the scream
Soft in the whisper
Quick in the mind
Fair in the sentence
Brave in the confrontation
Joining in the love

Graceful in the sleep
Careful in the search
Deep in the sorrow
Strength in the sickness
Giving of thy self
Rich in the health
Kind in the giving
Joining in the love

Written By Lee Henry Aguilera~~~Sue-Anne Aguilera's ANGEL

Dear Natalie and ANGEL Malorie

ANGEL Malorie has not left you
She will always remain in your Heart
Whatever you say, do, wherever you go
You will never be that far apart

When you think of your ANGEL
Don't think of her as gone
Just look up, open your Heart
One Special Cloud, She will be lying on

Oh, my Dearest Mom
I am just away for a little while
There will be one day soon
When we will see each other smile

I have met so many wonderful ANGEL'S
It is like a different world hear
I can't wait for you to arrive
Just to have you near

Written By Sue-Anne Aguilera~~~Lee'sMom

In Loving Memory of Lee Henry Aguilera


In Loving Remembrance of Mal
Happy Birthday in Heaven Sweet Angel
Ann, Laurasmom

In Memory of Mal
A Beautiful and Sweet Angel Forever
Until You Meet Again
With Love
Ann, Laurasmom

Remembering your beautiful Angel Malorie
Forever in Our Hearts
Ann, Laurasmom

Hello Mal's Mom
I would like to offer my sympathy on your loss of Malorie. What a sweet young girl she was. Your website is very beautiful
and Maria has made a wonderful tribute to her. May you always receive God's grace and may he always walk with you.
With Love and Prayers
Ann, Laurasmom

I was so taken by Mal...she reminds me so much of Heidi when she was that age.
I feel so badly that Mal's mom has to go through this pain!!!

Missing Heidi

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This webpage is created
In Loving Memory of Malorie Anne Adkins

on September 15, 2005
Last updated: November 18, 2017
2005 - 2017

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