In Loving Memory of
Judith Anne St. John ~
5/23/49 - 1/26/93,
James J. St. John ~
9/18/59 -1/18/94
And Edward F. St. John ~
1/11/52 - 1/8/99

The Anniversaries

I cannot believe itís your anniversaries
When death came and carried each of you away
Sometimes I feel as if time has stood still
And your deaths were only yesterday

My heart was replaced with emptiness
Where love for you had been
I did not willingly replace you
Grief showed up and moved right in

Slowly Iím pushing out this grief
Replacing it with memories of each of you
My love and thoughts are refilling the space
Iíll never let this grief replace my love for you

I have never lost my love for you
This grief has only temporally separated us
Grief does strange things to a parent
But never will it replace the love I have for you

Time has a way of bringing healing to a heart
Even though the pain and sorrow may stay
God will always get me through each day
When I reach heaven He will take all my pain away

Until God brings us together
I want each of you to always remember
No matter the feelings or things I may say
My children, my love for you is forever
© 12 November 2006 Coleman Doyle Alldredge, Revised 2007

My Children: Judy, Jim, & Ed

In the darkness of the silent night
I dream of my children
Each child special to my delight

I was blessed to see my children grown
Many memories were shared and made
Death came, now they are gone

Judy, my daughter was the first to pass
Young and beautiful, my closest friend
Why oh why to God I asked

Little did I know that in just one year
Iíd be faced with yet another death
Of a child I also held dear

Jim, so free in mind
Loved by all who knew him
I feel he was called before his time

With the death of my son Ed
The oldest of the three
I thought this death would finish me

Ed was my shoulder I could lean upon
When I thought I would fall
He comforted me to carry along

In the darkness of each night
I hope to dream of you
Until we are joined together again
I send my love to you
Written By Doyle Alldredge, 2 January 2006

My Children

My precious, precious children, Judy, Jim and Ed
There is so much about you that could be said
So special are each of you to my heart
The three of you own a part

Even though you were grown
And each of you had your own homes
I always lovingly cared for each of you
Thatís what a mother is suppose to do

Looking back, our time together passed too fast
How I wanted it forever to last
Death came and took each of you away
I still cry for you with the birth of each new day

When I reach heaven, I canít wait to see
The three of you waiting at heavenís gate for me
After all the kisses and hugs weíll walk hand in hand
Through those gates to Godís promised land

Judy, Jim, Ed, and me
Written by By: Coleman Doyle Alldredge
Copyright © 2005
In Memory of Maggie's Angels --

These six gifts above for Maggie's Angels are from my friend Marie.
You can visit her website for her son Rob here ~
Rob Northrop's Site.

This very special gift with Maggie and her Angels and so many of our Angels is also from my friend Marie.

James J. "Jimmy" St. John
9/18/59 -1/18/94

These are two beautiful gifts for Angel Jim from my dear friend Carol, mom to Angel Michael.

And these are also two beautiful gifts from my dear friend Carol.

Judith Anne "Judy" St. John
5/23/49 - 1/26/93

Edward F. "Ed" St. John
1/11/52 - 1/8/99

These two images above are beautiful and loving gifts for Angel Edward from my dear friend, Carol, mom to Angel Michael.

My Childrenís Soul to Keep

Dear Lord I come to thee my friend,
With a message I must send,
My child has come to thee,
With their souls set free,
And my life has been torn,
Remembering the day they were born,
So please hold my dear children tight,
Keeping them in your guiding light,
And when they ask if momís okay,
Please tell them I feel them this day,
And I will join them with love,
Stored in my heart from above,
And when I see them it will flow,
Causing every heart to richly glow,
So within the tears I this day weep,
I ask You now my childrenís soul to keep.
By: Paul D. McCutcheon, Copyright © 05/08/2004

There's a pain beyond imagining
That's burning in your heart
For suddenly your whole world
Has been cruelly ripped apart.
All words of consolation
Which are bound to come your way
Will probably seem empty
And of little use today.
For when you ask the question why
It makes no sense at all
That three so precious had to die.

The only source of comfort
Is your memories and the love
And they will shine forever
Like the brightest star above.
A flame that burns eternally
So strong it lights the sky
And even through your darkest days
That flame will never die.
So many people share your pain
We grieve with you as one.
The gift of life gets taken back
But the love goes on and on.
-Author Unknown

As I sit at my computer by the window, I reflect on the course my life has taken. It is not at all what I had planned for and hoped for. I thought as my children grew, got married and had children, my HOME would be full, happy, with my children and their little ones laughing and running around.

The years went by, and my life was changing courses since 1978 -- first a divorce, then 3 moves from Massachusetts to New York, and then back to Rhode Island to be with my daughter Judy.

Judy, being a juvenile diabetic, had started with all the complications of that very devastating disease. Again, the course of my life was taking a different direction. I took care of my daughter as she had many surgeries and then ended up on dialysis 3 times a week.

On January 26, 1993, I got my Judy to get up for dialysis. When she got out of bed, she fell and went into a coma. At the hospital, they wanted to know if she had a living will. She didn't but I knew she didn't want to be on life support. Judy died that day, and the first of this journey started for me.

This is a beautiful and loving gift for Angel Jimmy from my dear friend, Carol, mom to Angel Michael.

The following year my son Jim overdosed on heroin, and I lost him on January 18, 1994.


I had only my son Ed left, and he was my protector, my rock, my friend. I loved him so.

In 1998, Ed went in to have open heart surgery, on December 21st. His surgery was 12 hours long, but it was a success. For two weeks while he was recovering he was planning to go home. On January 6, 1999, he had a bleed to the brain, had surgery, then was put on life supports. He did state, before he went into the hospital, that he was not to be kept on them. So, on January 8, 1999, I went with my daughter-in-law, and the life supports were removed, and Ed joined
his sister Judy and brother Jim.

All the plans, dreams and hopes were now gone. The family life, the grown children who would visit me with their children, was gone. I didn't know what to do or how I was going to survive. I isolated in my recliner for 3 months with my daughter-in-law taking care of me.

To all that are new in grief, some beginning to feel the reality of it all, I know where you are. I had that intense pain, the confusion, the anger, the what if's, and the isolating myself because
I didn't want to be here.

I got professional help, and then in May 1999, I came to Heavenly Angels. Here were the ones who were going to help me. Each bereaved mom and dad in grief were in different stages. I clung to the ones that kept telling me, the pain would soften, never go away, but I would in time learn
to live with it. Did I believe it at that time? No! But I was willing to keep listening.

I do not have those family Sundays and full holidays, but I have a peace within myself and I have promised my children to honor and celebrate their lives. I do it by helping others --
offering Love, Strength and Hope which was given to me.

Stay close to Heavenly Angels, my friends, and I know in time
you will find that Love, Strength and Hope.

Weep Not For Me My Mother

Iím up in heaven mother
Enjoying Godís glorious views
Iím conversing with you now mother
Through a porthole, of a poets muse

I can feel your sorrow mother
Your anguish and your pain
I plea with you, donít cry for me
For weíll be together once again

Let the tears you cry be joyous ones
I am now happy where I am
Iím just so proud to be here
Serving as, my Heavenly Fatherís lamb

I also have my halo on
It gives off a divinely glow
Itís ok to hold me in your heart
But please let my spirit go

I still love you mother
You are still the world to me
When God calls for you to be here
Weíll be together for all eternity

I am smiling at you mother
As you go about your days
Just cast your eyes towards heaven mom
And to God sing out with praise

Next time that you think of me, mother
Just smile and please donít cry
You know that we will meet again
In my heavenly home on high

Just place your fingers to your lips
Point them, into a gentle breeze
I will feel your love and kisses mom
Iíll cherish each and every one of these
Author: Tom Hutchinson, September 9, 2004


When I think of you
My heart bursts with pride
Blessed with a beautiful child
To love and care for until you died

When I think of you
I remember how you taught me about life
Always to cherish each precious moment
For the moment may become the last

When I think of you
I think how blessed I am
For God to bless me with you
To teach us to love as He loves us

When I think of you
My memories keep you alive
You are forever in my heart
Forever to be loved and missed...
Written by Doyle Alldredge (2005)

My g/daughter Jenn's 3 children..Jim's g/children. I know he sees them from above.
Kyle 6, Ryan 8, Leah Rose 2 months.
I am blessed to have them in my life..This picture of them touches my heart
and especially this month.

Amelia at Halloween. She sure brings joy and love to me.

A small gift for Maggie, Judy's mother, from one grieving mother to another.

For Maggie's Edward. May God bless and comfort her always.

A gift for you dear Maggie at this horrid time of your life. May God bless and comfort you always.
May He grant to you some peace of mind and heart. My prayers are with you.
Karen Lyn Jenkins
Mother of an Angel with Pink Wings

Geoffrey Philip James Edwards

The Most Courageous Woman I know
My Thoughts are with you and your new page that Maria made for Jim is so beautiful. I just want you to know that I never forget you and all that you did for me. I made this little gift for your three angels and to honor Jim on his birthday and I'm so sorry he's not here with you. You are a pillar of strength for everyone and are blessed with such an understanding heart. May God bless you today, tomorrow and forever.
With Love
Ann, Laurasmom

From My Heart to yours,
May God Always Be With You
Ann, Laurasmom

Don't Cry Mommy
Author Unknown

Don't cry Mommy,
Mommy, please don't cry.
Because the day we left your loving arms
We didn't say good-bye.

We're still here with you
And Daddy too...we just wanted you to know
Although our souls have left this earth,
There's a part of us that could not go.

It's the love we built
Between us Mom, The memories that we shared,
These wonderful things God let us leave behind
Because of how much you cared.

Only God knows how much we miss you Mommy
And the time we spent on Earth.
The way you loved to hold us close,
Ever since our Birth.

And He knows how much you miss us Mom,
God promises we'll be together again,
For all eternity, and that's a long time.
We will see you then.

So don't cry Mommy,
Mommy, please don't cry.
Because the day we left your loving arms.
We didn't say...

We Will Meet Again

I have not turned my back on you,
So there is no need to cry.
I'm watching you from heaven,
Just beyond the morning sky.
I've seen you almost fall apart,
When you could barely stand.
I ask the Lord to comfort you,
And watch him take your hand.
He told me you are in more pain,
Than I could ever be.
He wiped his eyes and swallowed hard,
Then gave your hand to me.
Although you may not feel my touch,
Or see me by your side,
I've whispered that I love you,
While I wiped each tear you cried.
So please try not to ache for me,
We'll meet again one day.
Beyond the dark and stormy sky,
A rainbow lights the way.
~ Author Unknown

Remember Us

Remember us with all your love
And with pain or with sorrow
Though we're not with you,
We still feel your love
Yesterday, today and tomorrow

It was special to be your children
For the time we were there
Cherish our memories together
Even when you think life isn't fair

Though we may not be there with you
We are always around
Sometimes we do appear to you
A butterfly, a song or in a friend you have found

Remember us with a joyful heart
Along with happiness and love
These are the things that keep me alive
Forever within your heart....
Written by Doyle Alldredge

Sadly for all of us, Maggie has joined her Angels in Heaven. You can visit her web page here ~
In Loving Memory of Margaret "Maggie" St. John

Click on the gates below to visit all of Maggie's Angel Pages ~

Please also visit this very special page ~
Merry Christmas From Maggie's Angels!

I wrote your name on the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name on the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it'll stay.

A small gift for Maggie's Beautiful Angels. God bless you. GEOFFREY P. EDWARDS

I don't even have the words to express what I feel in my sorrow for you.
You are such a lovely and gracious lady who has helped so many mothers
along the way and you may be totally unaware of how many you have saved.
I made this gift for you in honor of your lovely daughter Judy
and send it to you with much love.
My prayers are forever with you
Ann, Laurasmom

In Remembrance of Judith Anne St. John

We Celebrate Your Life
You Are In Our Hearts Forever

Edward St. John
You Are Loved and Remembered

James St. John
You Are Loved and Remembered

Beloved Angels of Heaven


And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes;
and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow,
nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain:
for the former things are passed away.
Revelation 21:4

I'm Thinking of you and there are just no words to express my sorrow.
Yours has been beyond compare. I know that Jesus has been carrying you
and He will one day wipe away all your tears.
Everyone is thinking of you. I have always kept you in my prayers.
With My Deepest Affection and Love
Ann, Laurasmom"

"Maggie ~
There are just no words I can say right now. Knowing is one thing,
but seeing on a page is something altogether different.
This angel looked so much like Judy and I hope you like it.
My prayers are with you always."

Ann, Laurasmom
In Loving Memory of Laura Ann Kimble

My Precious Angels
Loved and Remembered Forever
Judy, Jim and Ed

Thinking of you and your angels Judy, Jim and Ed,
There will always to be a heartache, and often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory of the days when you were here.
If tears would make a staircase, and heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven and bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts; and there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now, and nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.
Love and blessings,
My Tina's Memorial Site

My Angel Son Michael

My Angel Michelle

My Angel Laurie

I have never met you Maggie, I also haven't known you that long, but in the time I have met you, you just amaze me.
You are the most courageous woman I have ever met. Bringing up your children mostly on your own, watching them grow into teen's, young adults, then to have your life ripped apart by loosing them, in a short span of time of each other.
GOD puts us on this earth to do a job, and be tested. HE also tests our strength. Your strength and love just amazes me.
Maggie your ANGEL'S are still with you, to have come from an amazing woman like you, I know they wouldn't think of leaving you,
and they haven't.
I will not say your children have left you, because they haven't, they are just away for a while. You will still see them smile at you, wave their hand. And when GOD calls you home Maggie, your three ANGEL'S will be waiting at those GOLDEN GATES with open arms,
where you will be reunited for Eternity.
In the meantime if you want to see them, look up, they are there, as the Stars are the Windows to Heaven where our ANGEL'S Peek Through.


Dearest Maggie
You will forever be in my Prayers and Thoughts..
You are a very, very special lady..

In Loving Memory Of
James's 24th Angelversary

Remembering Judy Always
05-23-49 ~ 01-26-93

Dearest Maggie
Over the years you have shown so many of us
The Grace Of A Queen
Such A Beautiful Lady

Dearest Maggie and ANGEL Edward

GOD gave me these ANGEL'S One Special Day
But for some unknown reason They were taken away

Edward's special day is coming
Another year come and gone
With the hand I was dealt with in life
I have had GOD on my side to keep me STRONG

All Moms and Dads, We all wonder why
Why GOD took our ANGEL'S
Why did they have to die?

GOD didn't take them
They are just away for a while
Open your Heart and Look Up
You will see their beautiful smile

Those Stars in the Sky
Are their windows they look through
To wave and blow kisses Just especially for you.

Written By Sue-Anne Aguilera~~~Lee'sMom

In Loving Memory Of Lee Henry Aguilera

A friend can hear a tear drop.

This webpage is created
In Loving Memory of Judith Anne, James J., and Edward F. St. John
on January 20, 2005
Last updated: February 16, 2018
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