In Loving Memory of
Brittany Brooks Guleff
May 7, 1985 - March 26, 2010

Bittersweet Birthday #29

I wanted to celebrate your birthday
hoping to restart a new tradition gladness soon turned into sadness
when I turned around and saw your son's reaction.

He looked so sad and lost, my heart just sank
I never ever want to see that expression on his face
He doesn't want to remember
So I know in my heart there may not be another

On the other hand, your daughter was so excited
blowing up balloons and eating all the icing.
It was bittersweet and now I will know better
next time your birthday will just be me and your daughter.

Written by Angel Brittany's mom, Pam, on 5/27/14

Quietly I'm remembering you
in the silence of my heart
Each thought of you a treasure
while we are now apart.
At times I'm filled with longing;
You're face I'd love to see,
To feel your warmth, to hear your voice
to have you here with me.
But God has a plan for you;
He created you and numbered all your days,
May he hold you in His loving arms
and surround me with His grace.
With the hope of reunion in Heaven one day,
I entrust you in His care
Cherished memories of you live in my heart.
Your life is a gift we share.
~ Author unknown

Brittany is 3 or 4 years old here.

Brittany at 8 years old with her loving mom.

Brittany, Kristie, Jonnette & Chris at Bottenfield Jr High. Sorry, we may have misspelled some of these names.

Our little ballerina!

Brittany's confirmation - February 27, 1999
14 years old
St. Patrick Catholic Church

"Mom" 01/09/01

I'm sorry mom for everything,
and I thank God cuz you are a blessing.
Please believe that I am sorry
And believe that it's true for all the pain that I have caused
and put you through.

I hope you understand I'm really a good child,
even though I can be a little wild. LOL
I would like to change every bad thing I did,
and sometimes wishing I could change back to a kid.
Please believe I love you and please believe it's true
that you are my mom and I care about you.
Sometimes I feel bad and sorry because I hurt you
But I can't change it so I just try to have a better attitude.
I know I put you down for my grades in school
but I'm going to bring them up so I can be somebody cool.
I hope you understand I wrote this out of love,
hoping you forgive me and if you do I'll thank the Lord above.

Love always,

These are two loving gifts for Brittany from our friend, Julie.


The loss of a child no matter what age
Fills me up inside with so much rage
I didn't get a chance to say good-bye to you
It just wasn't long enough; you left so soon

I feel cheated; You were not suppose to leave
Not yet anyway....
Had you known, other choices could have been made.

What happened that night,
no one will really ever know
Too many questions, too many stories told

The only people who do know the truth
are those that lied.
So I go and sit in my room to scream and cry.
Not one person would step forward to ease my mind.

The pain of losing you is so hard to bear;
I wish I could have been there,
for you and your children.
Now it's too late, you are gone.

I don't know why God would take you
and leave me behind
I miss you - always in my heart and always on my mind
I will never be the same,
All I have are memories until we meet again.
~ Written by Angel Brittany's mother Pam in 2010

So cute, my little Dalton posing with his mom, Brittany.

"How am I suppose to keep on living; this is much worse
I miss your laugh, your smile, and beautiful eyes
You never had a chance to realize your own true self-worth.
So robbed!
You are beautiful to me.
~ Also written by Pam on 5/7/2010

I am not there

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the snow on the mountain's rim,
I am the laughter in children's eyes,
I am the sand at the water's edge,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle Autumn rain,
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight,
I am the star that shines at night,
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.
~ Author unknown
In Memory of Brittany
Shared by Pam Brooks on 03/23/2014

Brittany with Chris.

My Memory

Keep my memory with you,
For memories never die;
I will be there with you;
When you look across the sky.

I will be there in the clouds
In the birds that fill the air,
In the beauty of a fragrant rose,
You will find my memory there.

You will feel me in the tenderness,
Of a baby's gentle touch,
You will hear me if you listen,
In the twilight's gentle hush.

When your hearts are heavy,
And you feel that you are all alone,
Just reach down deep inside of you,
For your heart is now my home.

I will always be with you,
I will never go away,
For I will live on in your hearts,
Forever and a day.
~ Author unknown

The mention of my child's name
may bring tears to my eyes,
But it never fails to bring music to my ears.
If you are really my friend,
let me hear the music of her name!
It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul!
~ Author Unknown ~

Thank you to my dear friend Ann for the name plaque above, for framing Brittany's photos,
and formany of the other special gifts on Angel Brittany's web page.
You can visit Ann's memorial web pages for her daughter Laura by clicking on the banner below ~

  Please also visit Happy Birthday Angel Brittany!

  And also please visit Gifts for Our Angel Brittany

And also please visit Brittany's Christmas

A friend can hear a tear drop.

This webpage is created
In Loving Memory of Brittany Brooks Guleff
on March 30, 2014
Last updated: February 25, 2016
2014 - 2016

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