In Loving Memory of
Antonio Giovanne Garvey
December 8, 1999 - December 21, 1999
MY DEAREST SON ANTONIO,
TODAY I SIT HERE WRITING YOU, WANTING TO SHARE WITH YOU
HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU AND HOW MUCH I THINK
OF YOU EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY... I THINK OF YOU & MY
HEART ACHES AS YOU'RE NOT HERE WITH ME TO TOUCH TO HOLD
TO TALK TO... TO SEE YOU GROW, SEE YOU WALK, TALK, GIVE
THOSE GENTLE TOUCHES AND HUGS THAT YOUR BROTHER ANGELO
GIVES. AS I WRITE THIS LETTER TO YOU, THE TEARS ROLL
DOWN MY FACE... TEARS OF EMPTINESS AND SADDNESS AND ALSO
TEARS OF JOY. MY HEART IS SAD AS I AM REMEMBERING THE
VERY FIRST CRY I HEARD WHEN YOU WERE BORN... HOW YOU &
ANGELO WERE CRYING AT THE SAME TIME. IT PLAYS OVER AND
OVER IN MY HEAD. WHAT I WOULD NOT GIVE TO HEAR THAT CRY
AGAIN, I REMEMBER CRYING I COULD NOT BELIEVE I WAS
FINALLY A MOTHER. I WAS SCARED, BUT HAPPY TO HAVE YOU
AND ANGELO IN MY LIFE AND SO EXCITED TO BE A GOOD MOM
TO YOU BOTH.
I ALSO REMEMBER BEING SO SCARED WHEN THE
HOSPITAL STAFF CAME TO ME AND TOLD ME YOU HAD TO GO TO
A DIFFERENT HOSPITAL BECAUSE YOU NEEDED MORE CARE, AND
THEY DID NOT HAVE THE EQUIPMENT FOR YOU SINCE YOU WERE
SUCH A TINY 3LBS 10 OZ BOY, 15 INCHES LONG. YOU HAD
CURLY HAIR AND SUCH A BEAUTIFUL COMPLEXION, AND YOU HAD
MY FINGERS AND TOES AND MY EARS, YOUR LIPS WERE SO
PRECIOUS AND PERFECT, AND YOUR EYEBROWS WERE SO FULL
FOR SUCH A YOUNG BABY. HAVING YOU AND ANGELO THE DAY
BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY WAS THE BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT GOD
COULD HAVE GIVEN TO ME. YOU WERE SO WANTED! I WENT
THROUGH SO MUCH TO GET PREGNANT. I REMEMBER AFTER 2
WEEKS OF MY PREGNANCY, FINDING OUT I WAS HAVING TWINS. I
WAS SO HAPPY I SCREAMED THE WHOLE WAY HOME! I WAS SO
VERY HAPPY, AND I LOVED YOU FROM THE VERY START. I
REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME YOU AND ANGELO MOVED... IT WAS
ALWAYS DURING THE EVENING AND NIGHT. YOU BOTH MUST OF
SLEPT DURING THE DAY? YOU GAVE ME AN EXPERIENCE THAT I
WOULD HAVE NEVER KNOWN, AND I FEEL BLESSED TO HAVE HAD
THE CHANCE TO HAVE YOU, TO BE A PART OF YOU, AND FOR YOU
TO BE A PART OF ME AND MY HEART AND SOUL. THE WORST
TIME WAS DECEMBER 12TH WHEN YOUR DAD AND I MET WITH A
TEAM OF DIFFERENT DOCTORS, AND THEY ALL HAD DIFFERENT
ANSWERS AND RECOMENDATIONS. AND YOUR DAD AND I DID NOT
WANT TO LET YOU GO, EVEN KNOWING THE CHANCES OF YOU
LIVING WERE 20%. WE KNEW THAT THIS WAS A TEST, AND WE
KNEW THAT YOU WERE A FIGHTER, AND YOU WERE TILL THE
VERY END. I REMEMBER COMING TO THE HOSPITAL, AND THE
DOCTOR LETTING ME HOLD YOU
FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME...
The first time Antonio's mom was allowed to hold him was his 10th day of life.
He was still on the ventilator.
Antonio was also on the ventilator the first time his dad got to hold him.
THAT NIGHT I FELT YOUR PAIN, AND I FELT YOUR SUFFERING.
AND I KNEW THAT YOU WERE GOING TO LEAVE US DUE TO ALL
THE PROBLEMS YOU WERE HAVING. AND IT WAS SO VERY HARD
FOR ME TO PUT YOU DOWN AND BACK INTO YOUR BED. I WASN'T
NOT SURE IF I WOULD GET TO HOLD YOU AGAIN...AND I DID,
ON THE DAY WE TOOK YOU OFF LIFE SUPPORT... I WAS
SCHEDULED TO TAKE YOU OFF LIFE SUPPORT AT 1:00 PM, AND
I REMEMBER THE TIME WAS GETTING LATER AND LATER. I
WAS HAVING MIXED FEELINGS OF LETTING YOU GO. YOUR
GRANDMA AND YOUR GRANDMA REENY, YOUR FATHER AND I
ARRIVED AT 2:30, ALONG WITH YOUR BROTHER.
After they took Antonio off the ventilator, he lived here on earth for 45 minutes,
visiting with his mom and dad...
...and here Antonio is visiting with his paternal grandmother...
...and here is Antonio visiting with his Grandma Reeny. Sadly, she has joined Antonio in Heaven.
Please visit her web page at In Loving Memory of My Beloved Mother
WE HELD YOU AND HELD
YOU SO YOU WOULD NOT BE ALONE AS YOU ENTERED INTO
HEAVEN. I REMEMBER YOU WERE IN YOUR DADS ARMS AS YOU
TOOK YOUR LAST BREATH, AND I REMEMBER HOLDING YOU FOR 2
HOURS AFTER YOU PASSED AWAY...
In this picture, Antonio takes his last breath cradled in his daddy's arms.
I KNEW I WOULD NEVER HOLD
YOU AGAIN... EVERY DAY I THINK OF THAT TIME AND THOSE
DAYS. I KNOW NOW THAT I WAS VERY LUCKY TO HAVE SPENT
THOSE 13 DAYS WITH YOU, AND TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE. I
WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I KNOW YOU'RE IN A BETTER PLACE. I
KNOW THAT EVEN THOUGH I CAN'T SEE YOUR FACE, I KNOW
YOU'RE LOOKING DOWN ON ME, SAYING EVERYTHING IS OK. I
KNOW YOU ARE MINE AND ANGELO'S AND YOUR DAD'S GUARDIAN
ANGEL AND SOMEDAY WE WILL JOIN YOU AND HOLD YOU AGAIN
IN OUR ARMS. I KNOW THAT YOU'RE UP THERE WITH YOUR
RELATIVES THAT WE HAVE LOST ALONG THE WAY IN LIFE AND
THAT YOU'RE SMILING AND SINGING AND DANCING... AND YOU ARE
MOST OF ALL, FREE OF SUFFERING, FREE OF PAIN, AND THAT
MAKES MY LOSS A SACRIFICE WORTH DOING. I KNOW THAT YOU
KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU, AND THAT YOU ARE STILL WITH
ME ALL OF THE TIME IN MY HEART IN MY SOUL AND MY MIND.
I AM GOING TO END THIS LETTER BY SAYING WE MISS YOU SO
MUCH, AND WE LOVE YOU FOREVER... AND YOU'RE A VERY SPECIAL
PERSON AND A LOVED ANGEL. I HOPE YOU ARE PAINTING
RAINBOWS IN THE SKY WITH YOUR ANGEL FRIENDS AND
SITTING ON YOUR GRANDPA'S LAP SMILING DOWN ON US......
These two special gifts for Angel Antonio are from my friend Marie.
You can visit Marie's website for her son Rob here ~ Rob Northrop's Site.
This is a loving gift to Angel Antonio from my dear friend, Carol, mom to Angel Michael.
A note from Antonio's mom: "Here is a song I sang at a support group
and keep it on my desk to get me through each day. I
would like it on the web page."
YOU'RE IN MY HEART TODAY
THERE ARE MANY THINGS I WOULD HAVE TOLD YOU,
THERE HAD BEEN A CHANCE TO SAY GOOD-BYE.
BUT YOU WERE
GONE SO SUDDENLY, IT TOOK THE BREATH AWAY FROM ME,
STILL I JUST CAN NOT UNDERSTAND WHY.
SO I AM GOING TO
WRITE A LETTER TO YOU AND SHARE SOME THINGS
GOT TO SAY...
AND THOUGH YOU CANNOT BE RIGHT HERE BESIDE
I HEAR YOUR VOICE...
YOU'RE IN MY HEART TODAY
THIS WAS MY FIRST MOTHERS DAY LETTER AND I'D LIKE TO
SHARE IT WITH OTHERS ~ DATED MAY 7, 2000
YOU MAY REMEMBER ME. I'M DAWN, ONE OF THE NURSES
THAT CARED FOR LITTLE ANTONIO IN THE NEONATAL
INTENSIVE CARE UNIT AT MEMORIAL. I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T
BEEN IN TOUCH, BUT I WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU HAVE
OFTEN BEEN IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS SINCE
PRECIOUS LITTLE BOY DIED.
NOW AS MOTHER'S DAY APPROACHES, MY HEART
ESPECIALLY GOES OUT TO YOU, AND I WANTED YOU TO KNOW
THAT I'M THINKING ABOUT YOU. I KNOW YOU HAVE A
BEAUTIFUL TWIN AT HOME, AND THAT MOTHER'S DAY WILL BE
VERY SPECIAL BECAUSE OF HIM. STILL, IT WILL BE A SAD
DAY, TOO, AS YOU MOURN THE ABSENCE OF LITTLE ANTONIO.
IT'S INCREDIBLE HOW MUCH A MOM CAN LOVE A CHILD
ENTRUSTED TO HER CARE FOR SUCH A SHORT TIME! I HOPE
THAT AMIDST THE TEARS YOU WILL BE ABLE TO REMEMBER THE
JOY OF CARRYING HIM,OF GIVING BIRTH TO HIM, AND LOVING
HIM. YOU MAY NOT BE ABLE TO HOLD HIM IN YOUR ARMS
NOW, BUT YOU ARE HIS MOTHER NONE-THE-LESS. YOU DON'T GET
TO CARE FOR HIM AND GUIDE HIM AS HE GROWS UP, BUT YOU
DID GIVE HIM LIFE. AND NOW...HE IS EXPERIENCING
EVERLASTING LIFE...WHERE HE WAITS FOR THE DAY WHEN YOU
CAN ALL BE TOGETHER...FOREVER! SO, GO AHEAD,CELEBRATE
EVEN THOUGH THERE IS GREAT SADNESS, YOU
FOR WHICH TO CELEBRATE!
MAY GOD GIVE YOU COMFORT AND STRENGTH IN THE DAYS
AHEAD AS YOU GRIEVE,BUT MAY YOUR JOYS ALSO BE ABUNDANT
AS YOU LOVE
AND CARE FOR ANTONIO'S TWIN.
SINCERELY, DAWN PERRIN
OH MOTHER, MY MOTHER
OH MOTHER, MY MOTHER, I TOUCH YOUR TEARS,
FINGERS SOOTHING YOUR SKIN
I KNOW YOU THINK OF ME SO
OFTEN IN THE DAY,
IN THE NIGHT, IN YOUR DREAMS
INTO ANGELO'S AND MY NURSERY
KNOWING I'LL NEVER BE THERE
BUT I AM....
IN YOUR HEART IN YOUR SOUL, I SHALL ALWAYS
FOR YOU GAVE SO UNSELFISHLY OF YOURSELF.
INSIDE OF YOU, YOU CREATED SUCH A WORLD FOR ME
OF LAUGHTER, OF LOVE,
OF SADNESS, OF SORROW, EVERY
PEOPLE COME TO KNOW YOU SHARED WITH ME.
AND EVEN THOUGH I MAY NEVER FEEL
YOUR ARMS AROUND ME
(UNTIL WE ARE REUNITED),
I FELT YOUR HEART
BEATING LIKE A LULLABY,
SINGING ME TO SLEEP
SPIRIT GIVING ME A SAFE HAVEN
ALREADY PROTECTING ME,
NURTURING ME, PREPARING ME OF THINGS TO COME.
SOMETIMES THE JOURNEY OF LIFE
PULLS SOULS APART AND
I HAD TO GO ON TO ANOTHER PLACE.
I WISH I COULD
I WISH THIS WAS A DECISION I COULD MAKE
KNOW YOU DO TOO.
KNOW THIS WHEREVER YOU ARE:
ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOURS
WAS THE FIRST LOVE, THE
THE FIRST SOUL I WILL EVER KNOW
YOU GAVE ME
THE COURAGE TO GO ON IN MY JOURNEY
I HOPE I CAN DO THE
SAME FOR YOU.
YOUR HEART BEAT WILL ALWAYS CALL ME TO
LOVE, YOUR CHILD ANTONIO GIOVANNE GARVEY
This is Antonio's surviving twin, Angelo Laurencio Garvey.
Click on the words below to see the page dedicated
from Angelo to his brother, Angel Antonio...
Below are pictures of Antonio's little brother, Mario Kymani Garvey, born on March 18, 2003.
And here is Antonio's newest little brother, Lorenzo Mikhale Garvey, born on September 19, 2004.
To a Very Special ANGEL
Antonio will be with you always
In Loving Memory of Lee Henry Aguilera
My Angel Son Michael
Click on the words below to visit Antonio's Awards Page...
Please remember to visit Happy Birthday Antonio
Please also visit Merry Christmas Antonio!
Please remember to also visit Our Holiday Angels Page
Antonio also has a Memorial on the Multiples Angels Network ~
And Antonio is listed on the Neonatal Memorial Wall
Angel Babies Forever Loved
To visit Antonio's very special and precious Quilt Page,
please click on the image below ~
The image and poem below are special gifts for Antonio from my sweet and thoughtful friend Pammi.
A Message From Heaven
I am not so far from you,
Just a little way beyond;
Past the cares and past the pain,
Far past my earthly bonds.
When you feel you miss me most,
As years go drifting by;
Each memory will prove to you,
That our love will never die.
For memories are but a touch,
From the Father's gentle hand;
To heal your pain and mend your hearts,
To help you understand...
That while I left you far too soon,
I did not leave alone;
For the Father sent His angels,
To gently take me home.
Take comfort when you think of me,
Keep my love alive in your heart;
And with the warmth of each memory,
We will never be apart.
Allison Chambers Coxsey,
Used with permission
I know how much your heart must be aching these
past two weeks as you remember this sweet little angel
that you had only for a short time. He is yours forever.
You will be in my prayers as you walk the sorrowful
path we all must now follow.
God be with you
I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO ACKNOWLEDGE &
THANK MARIA; SHE DONATED SO MUCH OF HER TIME & EFFORTS
HELP ME COMPLETE THIS PAGE FOR MY ANGEL ANTONIO.
TO KNOW HER IS TO LOVE HER, FOR HER INSPIRATION
FROM THE LOVE SHE HAS FOR HER BELOVED SON CHRIS.
I JUST WANT TO SHARE THEY ARE BOTH ANGELS TO ME.
LOVE FROM MAUREEN, ANTONIO'S AND ANGELO'S MOMMY
Thank you very much to my dear friend Sheri for doing the special frames for Mario's photos
and for some of Antonio's photos also.
A friend can hear a tear drop.
This webpage is created In Loving Memory of Antonio Giovanne Garveyon October 1, 2001
Last updated: December 2, 2016
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